| out of touch. |
[Aug. 26th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
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| |  groggy | ] |
i work too much. school starts monday. i'm completely unprepared. i read my book, but that's not what i'm unprepared about. i'm so out of touch with everything and everyone. this whole summer has a been a blur. i worked and partied and slept. and ate some food here and there. and without any exagerations, that was basically my summer. no vacations, no nothing. those 3 - 4 things. and if you ask me what day it is, date, time, i will not know. i never do anymore.
i've lost touch with alot of people. which i could kick myself for. but working really fucks with that alot. i worked practically every day. and without a license, what's a girl to do. amanda has been the best friend i could ask for this summer. idk what i would have done without her. i miss so many people. work is changing too with lots of new rules, and now school is starting, and i'm a fucking upperclassman. it hasn't hit me. i miss people.
and i don't feel good. which is why i left work early today. mhm mhm. |
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| everything = beat. |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|11:37 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
so i feel really sick for some reason. ah not fun. i worked for 3 hours, and it took 2 hours to close. that's the shittiest deal, i swear. the new manager was supposed to all chill and shit and noooo, everything has to be friggin perfect. not too chill, if you ask me.
last night i played my first game of poker at zak and ian's. lost 10 bucks, but i don't care cause it was still fun hangin out with some awesome people. and boooooo zak left today and george isn't even half as cool as him ! come to think of it.. EVERYONE left sunday. mal, erik, jason, jerusha last week, and now zak. and allyp will be gone too. cheeburger sucks a big one.
and i still haven't finished my fucking summer reading boooook! what the hell. it's not too bad but i had ADD, and alot of hours at work this week. fuuudge.
not to mention, i spend over 100 dollars today at towson with amanda back to school shopping and didn't even get that much. very upsetting to part with money! i hate paying for everything myselfff!! oh well. at least i'll be able to like live on my own by the time i'm 18, and my parents really won't be able to hold anything over my head. like my car and shit. so that's not too bad. whatevvvv. i'm real sick, and tired as hell. so i'm out.
night biaas. |
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| long time, no entry. |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
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| |  AHH. | ] |
so yeah. i've been at my dad's for a week. can you say, exciting? yeah, i can't either. it was pretty lame. i mean, when amanda came over it was fun (HA) but other than that, idk. i mean, yeah hot tub and pool next door but idk, my dad and stepmom drive me absolutely insaneeeeeeeee. and that stupid cat. anyway, i'm back now and it's hit me that school starts in a week, and i work 6 days the week before (this coming week) which i'm pretty upset about. i need to go shopping and it seems like i haven't seen my friends in forever. and now i'm stressing about school and i don't seem to have classes with anyone. I'M FLIPPIN YO! |
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| major suck-age. |
[Aug. 6th, 2006|01:08 am] |
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| |  words can't explain. | ] |
so today sucked pretty hardcore to summarize things.
a 12 hour shift really doesn't help a headache or irritating things sitting in the back of your head. the night was probably the worst part because...
[ yeah i know i bitch alot in this journal, but then again, it's MY journal, so if you don't like it, DON'T read it ]
...people were not cooporating. namely, me and mr. manager. and being at work just sucks in general sometimes. but when you make someone cry, you should know you've crossed the line from doing your job, to being an asshole. whatever, everyone has a pole stuck up their ass every once in a while right? and then i found out that a good friend of mine from there just put in his 2 weeks. not too happy bout that. like is sucking lately. the only reason i'm staying now is strictly for money. but for some reason, i don't feel that damn car getting any closer. fuuuuuck middle-classness. for real for real. i'm prayin for a lottery win right about now.
next week i'm dreading as well. AND the week after that. next week..
wednesday: 6 - 8 face painting wooh.
thursday: open to close
friday: open to close
saturday: open to close
sunday: 11 - 4.
looks fun doesn't it? NO. the only brightside is that i get to train amanda for two days. thank GOD, or else i might have died, literally.
and of course the week after that week, i'm going to my lovely father's house. i love him, of course, but i can't stand living there for even a weekEND let alone a week. i've been crying over this for days. and yeah it probably sounds stupid to you all but there's reasoning behind it. so go boo-hoo yourself.
whatever, i have a head/tummyache. |
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| kay so. |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|12:48 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
tonight was cool i guess. chilled with dom. but then it all went downhill from there.
i don't like it when people nose their way into other people's business. it definitely doesn't help and it definitely makes things more complicated. idk i was in an irritated mood to begin with because of my mother. i swear she is just waiting for me to slip up so she can punish me for doing something "i'm not supposed to be doing". she got out of bed JUST to smell my breath. and was there anything on it? no. fuck that. so fucking annoying. seriously, dude.
and certain AIM conversations didn't help much either. and now i'm way in thought and about alot of things. nothing that happened tonight actually. i just can't stop thinking about this one certain thing lately and it's got me real down. i usually never think about it but lately it's been weighing on my mind and it sucks cause i get all depressed about it.
i try to be kind of vague in this journal but i dunno if i can keep it up much longer. i'm about to spiiill over peeps.
goodnight much. let's hope for a better tomorrow.
oh fuck that, i have work. lovely. |
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| whatevvvvz ? |
[Aug. 3rd, 2006|02:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | not quite sure. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Say Anything. | ] |
i worked last night. then tried to go outttttt but the night was def beat !! boo to that. so anywaaaaay. it's thursday, and you know what that means. well, YOU probably don't, but i do. haha. tonight should be interesting hopefully if amanda's bitchass gets outta babysitting early. mhmmmm. so ummmm i'm bored now. and kinda hungry. and it's way hot. i wish i felt like laying out, but i really don't because i'm a bum and i'd rather get ready considering i'm 99% sure i'm going out tonight. and yeah. bye bye. |
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| currently at amanda's. |
[Jul. 31st, 2006|06:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  wooooh ! | ] |
so like. today has been the most random day ever.
1. ihop. where leo's mom served us.
2. mallllled it up for some clothing.
3. my house, bathing suit.
4. apartment swim club that's closed on mondays, wtf.
5. back to amanda's.
6. cheeburger to get amanda a job. she's hired ! =]
[i smell trouble].
7. gunpowder. ewwwww. we were desperate. haha.
8. so now we are clean [thank god] and bout to get ready for a night on the town, as usual.
haha all-in-all a pretty good day. besides it being "hott as satan's asshole" outside. hahahaha. nice amanda...LATER MUCH =]. |
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| FUCK SALT ! =] |
[Jul. 29th, 2006|02:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chyeah, whatevvv | ] |
okay so last night in one word would definitely have to be rediculous. absolutely rediculous.
okay me and amanda are cruising blaring music, as usual. stopped at micky d's, where else. then cruise some more, trying to find somewhere to chiiiill. amanda's decides she wants a slurpee. go to 7-11. got cowtails. back out to the jeep, and what ? IT DOESN'T START. fucking battery's dead. ahh ! so like, i called my steppadre, he jumpstarted us, we got home. eh pretty much thought the night was beat after that.
so we decided we'd just have a movie night, i mean, it was already 10. we'd spent forever trying to fix her damn jeep. so we took Bill's car to blockbuster to rent dazed and confused. well, on the way was george's, of course. pitstop. haha, unexpectedly. so yeah. we blew an hour by accident hanging with those crazy-ass boys. hurried to blockbuster, and they wouldn't even let us fucking rent it without a blockbuster card ! meanies.
well, we ended up watching Euro Trip anyway and now amanda's jeep has a new battery =]. yay.
and now i'm off to work in an hour. gaaaay. 4 to close. shoot me.
later =]. |
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| blahblahblah. |
[Jul. 27th, 2006|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  headaches are gay ! | ] |
soooooooo. today was B-E-A-T. yup pretty much. i didn't do SHIT this morning except for be sore and whine. yes, the soreness doubled. haha. oh well. and then work 4 to close. what else is new ? i am working my summer away i tell ya !
and come to think of it. there's only going to be three servers left at the end of the summer. wowzaaaa. i'm gonna be servin maaaaaaaaad...alot? yeah. alot. that's what i meant.
so back to what i was saying before the ADD kicked in. oh yeah. worked 4 to close. with mal, dani, and RJ. THE best people to work with i swear. they crack me up. it's awesome. the people there are really the only thing that makes cheeburger bearable.
so anyway, now i'm home. and i have the worst headache in life. but tomorrow's friday night, and i ain't working (for once) so i'm gonna be out on the town with my main bitch. HOLLA, GNIGHT NUKKA. |
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| life is pain !! |
[Jul. 26th, 2006|03:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  unbelievably sore | ] |
wow. i ache in places that i didn't even know existed. ouch. i seriously can barely move. ohmygoddddddddddd. i haven't done anything active in so long that yesterday just absolutely killed meeeeeee ! wow, i really hope tomorrow i feel better. ahhh.
face painting tonight. 6 - 8 at the cheeb. wooh. yeah, if i can move my arms.
bye for now. |
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